My Life...

My life .... simple but difficult, exciting and tiresome. It is what I long for but now regret. As I look into the mirror, and stare into my eyes;  All I see is hatred..... but not towards anyone but myself. "I" am the reason for my downfalls and of course "I" give people reason to judge me, at least that's what society says; after all I am a "Castaway". The meaning of Castaway to me is indeed different than it would be to others. According to the dictionary it means "a person rejected by society"; but I guess the reason as to why I am rejected by society is what's in question. Unfortunately you will have to keep reading my blog to fully understand my situation, but don't worry it will soon become clear....

My Job... Just like anyone else, is not something I look forward too. Which, FYI, is strange because I have one of the most laid back jobs in San Antonio; hell, probably in all of Texas. Notice how I refer to this as a job, as in, "not intended to be a permanent employment". Although I do get payed very well considering my age; 40,000/yr, and you'll be surprised to know my age. But we will save that for later, seeing as how I do not want to be judged so early in my entries. You may have an update about my job soon; there have been a lot of employees getting laid off around here and I'm not sure I trust this company. It may be hard to get another job like this for a while, but I want to follow my dreams anyway.

(My building is on the right)

My Cars.... Pretty much the definition of perfection; nothing could have defined me better. Designed with such elegance, truly, whoever designed these models are a fucking genius. It's a shame I know not the first thing about a car, which contradicts my masculine demeanor. One thing about me is I LOVE attention and surely these beautys' will never deny me that.

My Passion... Aside from Music, I love entertainment period. Being happy is very important to me, so if I can make people happy and keep them entertained with the talent I was blessed with, that would be a dream come true. I could write on this subject all day.... and one day I will.

(I LOVE our studio)

My Sex Life... Very wild. Turns out I'm a bit of a slut or what society calls a "man whore"..... Isn't everybody in a way?... So your telling me that not once in your life, you thought about doing something kinky with your next door neighbor, or  fuck your college instructor while everybody in the room watches? So you never, just once, thought about anything sexual with anyone you associated with? ..... So , how is that not the same thing? Everybody has a little freak in them, it's whether you embrace it, that gives people the right to label you..... Enough about that because I don't want to reveal too much just yet.

P.S.- I will not post any pictures of my sex life... YET!

My Love Life... Is totally different from my sex life. I've only been in love once or at least I thought I was in love. Does it make me a bad person because I tell somebody "I love you", so sincerely that even I began to believe it, and now I am trying my best to avoid the relationship I thought I wanted. Of course, somebody would fall in love with me, if I give them every reason to; I just didn't think it would be so fast. When a person gives you everything you wanted and more there is no way to resist ATTRACTION. But that is just exactly what it is, ATTRACTION. And my lover has the worst case of it, "fatal attraction". That is why I had to cut our relationship short, and we have gradually stop seeing each other.

** Don't think im cocky about my looks, because i do think i look hot; but when i say this person was attracted to me, it was mostly because of the way i made em' feel. Like they were everything, and there was nobody else in this world, but i think that's the way it should be**